New Musings, New Possibilities

I've been thinking lately...

Am I satisfied with my life? Am I truly happy with what I am doing? Where I'm going? I'm thinking more and more that the answer is no.

I've always been the type to not think things through. I jump into situations without much planning. Ever since graduating college I have been cruising through jobs and homes. Jet-setting to snowboard in the mountains, L.A., New Orleans, Vegas, Atlantic City, New York. I'm all over the place. I was one step away from spending a year in South Korea and teaching, but I didn't commit to that either. Now I'm working in the city and yet again looking for another job. I'm so impulsive with everything. When will I settle?

I've been thinking lately...

There's no way I'm settling soon. With so many things going on in the world, I think it's time I addressed another dream of mine: too travel overseas and work for a cause. Or maybe to stay in the country and work for a cause. I haven't decided, but apparently I don't decide on things until the time comes to decide. I read an article earlier on the nation of Haiti. Six months after the devastating earthquake that ravaged the already impoverished nation, there is still no long term recovery. Tents are still in place, equipped with food and keeping people off the streets, yes. But there is still rubble strewn everywhere. The cities are in shambles and the government is of no help. Children not receiving the attention they need. Could this be my next move? Possibly...

I've been thinking lately...

Kids. I love kids. We all know this. I work at a children's theater. But I want to make a bigger impact. I know that I could be a good teacher. But where? This is what I can't decide.

I've also been thinking lately...

Boys. I know this doesn't have anything to do with what I want to do with my life, but it's important. I haven't been in a relationship in a very long time. I haven't even dated in a long time. The boys I had been seeing were expendable and gone within 1 to 2 weeks. It's time to find a quality boyfriend. Or is it? I miss having a boy to date, kiss and introduce to my friends. But I have been thinking that I may not be around for long depending on what happens in my life. Sheesh.

What to do? What to do? Is anyone else as impulsive, indecisive and unsettled as I am? Let's see what happens I guess...